50 ways to say goodbye~

My heart is paralyzed

My head was oversized

I'll take the high road like I should

You said it's meant to be

That it's not you, it's me

You're leaving now for my own good

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

She went down in an airplane

Fried getting suntanned

Fell in a cement mixer full of quicksand

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!

She met a shark under water

Fell and no one caught her

I returned everything I ever bought her

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died

My pride still feels the sting

You were my everything

Some day I'll find a love like yours (a love like yours)

She'll think I'm Superman

Not super minivan

How could you leave on Yom Kippur?

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

She was caught in a mudslide

Eaten by a lion

Got run over by a crappy purple Scion

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!

She dried up in the desert

Drowned in a hot tub

Danced to death at an east side night club

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died

I wanna live a thousand lives with you

I wanna be the one you're dying to love...

But you don't want to

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

She went down in an airplane

Fried getting suntanned

Fell in a cement mixer full of quicksand

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!

She met a shark under water

Fell and no one caught her

I returned everything I ever bought her

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

She was caught in a mudslide

Eaten by a lion

Got run over by a crappy purple Scion

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!

She dried up in the desert

Drowned in a hot tub

Danced to death at an east side night club

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died

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I SHOULD SLEEP

Time is 4:20
And still awake
Gosh
:/

Just close your eyes
the sun is going down
you'll be alright
no one can hurt you now
come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

"I miss you"

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Still awake at 4 am :/

I should fix my body clock
and start exercising
and start eating properly

So many should, yet, so little will to accomplish it
I'm such a lazy ass

Because I can't sleep till you're next to me
No I can't live without you no more
Oh I'll stay up till you're next to me
Till this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia

"When you're alone in the middle of the night, your thoughts just wonder to things that you don't really wanna think about. Scumbag brain"

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Details in the fabric

Screwed up body clock
That's just great

Happy lunar new year to whoever read my blog

It's festive season!! I feel great and happy and amazing
Just kidding
I feel miserable
Others are enjoying company of relatives and friends
It's the time of joy, festivities etc etc
Yet, I feel so alone like never before
Maybe it was a bad idea for me to go back Sg. Maybe I should have stayed in indo for a while.
But oh well, what's done is done and there's nth I can do about it

This feeling of loneliness sucks
I really hope someone can help me with this before I start my destructive habit again
I should meet up with some friends

Okay I should stop ranting about this
It might just make me plunge deeper into depression

And it's currently 4:27 as I write this sentence
I should really sleep

Toodles~

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing

"Yeap, everything will be fine in no time at all (hopefully)"

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What am I doing, really?

It's been months.
Yet, I'm still regretting whatever that have happened :/

"This kinda makes me feel a little like an uchiha LOLOL"

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Adding salt to my own wound

I'm an idiot

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Though I know you'll never love me, like you used to~

I wanna be drunk when I wake up
On the right side of the wrong bed
And every excuse I made up,
Tell you the truth I hate,
What didn't kill me, it nvr makes me stronger at all

Love will scar your makeup lipstick to me,
So now I'll maybe lean back there
I'm sat here, wishing I was sober
I know I'll nvr hold you like I used to

But the house gets cold when you cut the heating
Without you to hold, I'll be freezing
Can't rely on my heart to beat it
Cause you take part of it every evening
Take words out of my mouth just from breathing
Replace with phrase like "when you leaving me?"
Should I, should I

Maybe I'll get drunk again
I'll be drunk again
I'll be drunk again
To feel a little loved

"You know the feeling when you want sth so badly but you know you just won't get it? Me too."

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