Though I know you'll never love me, like you used to~

I wanna be drunk when I wake up
On the right side of the wrong bed
And every excuse I made up,
Tell you the truth I hate,
What didn't kill me, it nvr makes me stronger at all

Love will scar your makeup lipstick to me,
So now I'll maybe lean back there
I'm sat here, wishing I was sober
I know I'll nvr hold you like I used to

But the house gets cold when you cut the heating
Without you to hold, I'll be freezing
Can't rely on my heart to beat it
Cause you take part of it every evening
Take words out of my mouth just from breathing
Replace with phrase like "when you leaving me?"
Should I, should I

Maybe I'll get drunk again
I'll be drunk again
I'll be drunk again
To feel a little loved

"You know the feeling when you want sth so badly but you know you just won't get it? Me too."