Still awake at 4 am :/

I should fix my body clock
and start exercising
and start eating properly

So many should, yet, so little will to accomplish it
I'm such a lazy ass

Because I can't sleep till you're next to me
No I can't live without you no more
Oh I'll stay up till you're next to me
Till this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia

"When you're alone in the middle of the night, your thoughts just wonder to things that you don't really wanna think about. Scumbag brain"

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Details in the fabric

Screwed up body clock
That's just great

Happy lunar new year to whoever read my blog

It's festive season!! I feel great and happy and amazing
Just kidding
I feel miserable
Others are enjoying company of relatives and friends
It's the time of joy, festivities etc etc
Yet, I feel so alone like never before
Maybe it was a bad idea for me to go back Sg. Maybe I should have stayed in indo for a while.
But oh well, what's done is done and there's nth I can do about it

This feeling of loneliness sucks
I really hope someone can help me with this before I start my destructive habit again
I should meet up with some friends

Okay I should stop ranting about this
It might just make me plunge deeper into depression

And it's currently 4:27 as I write this sentence
I should really sleep

Toodles~

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing

"Yeap, everything will be fine in no time at all (hopefully)"

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What am I doing, really?

It's been months.
Yet, I'm still regretting whatever that have happened :/

"This kinda makes me feel a little like an uchiha LOLOL"

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Adding salt to my own wound

I'm an idiot

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Though I know you'll never love me, like you used to~

I wanna be drunk when I wake up
On the right side of the wrong bed
And every excuse I made up,
Tell you the truth I hate,
What didn't kill me, it nvr makes me stronger at all

Love will scar your makeup lipstick to me,
So now I'll maybe lean back there
I'm sat here, wishing I was sober
I know I'll nvr hold you like I used to

But the house gets cold when you cut the heating
Without you to hold, I'll be freezing
Can't rely on my heart to beat it
Cause you take part of it every evening
Take words out of my mouth just from breathing
Replace with phrase like "when you leaving me?"
Should I, should I

Maybe I'll get drunk again
I'll be drunk again
I'll be drunk again
To feel a little loved

"You know the feeling when you want sth so badly but you know you just won't get it? Me too."

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LOLOL

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The more I think, the less I believe

Today was exhausting but nevertheless I had quite a lot of fun :)

Met up with tiff Sarah and Jo for brunch at hatched :D

I lurveeeee their poached egg :D

We chitchat for a while and bitch about some people LOLOL

After that we went to play dance central at cine.
I'm a badass dancer B)

Then I went back home and I knocked out on my sofa.
Prolly tired from swimming in the morning plus dance like a mad cow.

When I woke up, I was in one of my lowest mood for no apparent reason

It seems like I'm having my man pms :/

I prolly need a companion to fill the empty cup in my life.

And we are back to the topic of having a companion aka going in a relationship.

I really feel that as time pass, the likelier I am to stay forever available.

Optimism. Definition: using the term forever available rather than forever alone.

A jerk like me prolly won't be in a serious relationship anytime soon :/
Über sad face.

Oh well I should be sleeping soon.

Toodles~

Calm down, deep breath
And get yourself dressed
Instead of running around
And pulling your thread
And breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

"If only you knew how much you meant to me"

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