She's sitting at the table, the hours get later He was supposed to be here She's sure he would have called She waits a little longer There's no one in the driveway No one's said they've seen him Why, is something wrong? She looks back to the window Suddenly the phone rings A voice says something's happened She should come right now Her mind goes to December She thinks of when he asked her He bent down on his knees first And he said
I want you forever, forever and always Through the good and the bad and the ugly We'll grow old together, forever and always
She pulls up to the entrance She walks right to the front desk They lead her down a million halls A maze that's never ending They talk about what happened but she barely hear them She tries to keep a straight face as she walks into the room She sit by his bedside, hold his hands too tight They talk about the kids they're gonna have and the good life. The house on the hillside where they would stay
Stay there forever, forever and always Through the good and the bad and the ugly We'll grow old together and always remember Whether rich or for poor or for better We'll still love each other, forever and always
Then she gets an idea and calls in the nurses Brings up the chaplain and he said a couple verses She borrows some rings from couple next door everyone's laughing as the tears fall on the floor She look into his eyes and she says
I want you forever, forever and always Through the good and the bad and the ugly We'll grow old together, and always remember Whether happy or sad or whatever We'll still love each other, forever and always
She finishes the vows but his beeps are getting too slow His voice is almost too low As he says, I love you forever, forever and always Please just remember, even if I'm not there I'll always love you, forever and always
2012 ended with a bang! Loljk it was boring as fuck
Looking back, lotsa shit happened last year. Oh wait, I actually talked about this end of year review thing alr, I just realized hahaha
Since I don't really have anything much to say, ADHD TIME!
I've become a better babysitter.
I want a guitar badly D:
Current playlist: Jason mraz and Muse with a pinch of Ed sheeran.
Oh I can't find job apparently. Fcuk.
Flying back soon. But no idea wtf am I gonna do
I'm getting flabbier. Über sad face
The more time pass, the more I think I'll become a forever alone. Mega über sad face
I miss my friends :((((((
My ADHD time is getting sadder. I need to change topic
I had my fill of the indo food I had been craving :D
I don't like silence, unless I want to sleep.
That said, I once freaked out because I was alone. Apparently, that might be a sign of clinical depression.
I want to go kayaking, diving, rock climbing, snorkeling etc. My ODACer blood is boiling again LOLOL
I can't wait for the A level result to come out. You O level peeps are lucky shit to get your result back so soon.
I wonder if there is anyone from my sec school going to SA.
I haven't watched the hobbits yet. Boohoo
Okay I think I have said enough nonsense to make this post long enough.
I should shower soon.
Toodles~
P.S. My Korean brother, stay strong!! You can pull through this shit!
I'm gonna pick up the pieces and build a Lego house If things go wrong we can knock it down My three words have two meanings But there's one thing on my mind It's all for you
And it's dark in a cold december But I've got you to keep me warm If you're broke ln I'll mend ya And keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on
I'm out of sight I'm out of love I'll pick you up when you're getting down And out of all these things I've done, I think I love you better now
"I feel like I'm dragged more and more into shit hole"
Hello, tell me you know, yeah you figured me out Something gave it away it would be such a beautiful moment to see that look in your face to know that I know that you know now And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking You know nothing Cause you and I, while we go carrying on for hours on end We get along much better than you and your boyfriend All I really wanna do is love you A kind much closer than friends use But I still can't say after all we've been through And all I really want from you is to feel me As the feeling inside keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me Well, how long can I go on like this, wishing to kiss you before I rightly explode Well, this double life I lead isn't healthy for me In fact it makes me nervous If I get caught I could be risking it all Cause maybe there's a lot I miss in case I'm wrong
All I really wanna do is love you A kind much closer than friends use But I still can't say after all we've been through And all I really want from you is to feel me As the feeling inside keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me, if it kills me If I should be so bold, I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again
Well, all I really wanna do is love you A kind much closer than friends use But I still can't say after all we've been through And all I really want from you is to feel me As the feeling inside keeps building And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me It might kill me
Oh I can't believe I'll live to see the day when the post count reach 100 :') I'd like to thank the academy for giving me this opportunity to have this speech I'd also like to thank my family and friends, without them, I wouldn't have gone this far And lastly, my adoring fan, for without you, I'd had live for nothing
HAHAHA Jokes aside, it's been pretty happening since my last post let's see, the last post was 27th November at 12:06 am That was the A level Chem paper 1 if i'm not wrong It went pretty smoothly I guess I don't remember anything much till 3rd December, which is Bio paper. It was a little hell-ish, yet managable after that we went to watch ah boys hahaha
4th was the day when I became a girl I spent 9 hours looking for clothes HAHAHA really felt like a girl the major difference is, girls will bring back 5 bags full of clothes and shoes as for me, I only bought a blazer and a shirt 9 hours for two pieces of clothes *fail shopper*
On the 5th, went out with secondary school friends we went gardens by the bay funny thing is, the organiser came like 5 hours late HAHAHA that was the first time I actually tried skyping outdoor pretty cool eh?? :D after that had dinner at bakerzin it was pretty awesome and we spammed a lot of pics hahaha. *camwhore mode*
Ivanka got me an early christmas pressie!!
This DYI thingy actually can turn if you shine a bright enough light on the solar cell
cool shit!
I made it in the middle of the night at 1 am since I can't sleep HAHAHA
Okay then comes prom!
The girls all look so prettay hahaha
and I look so handsome
I mean more handsome than usual HAHAHA :D
Prom was pretty boring actually
It's the preparation that's fun
Either way, after prom is over, we get maybe a lil high in the hotel
hahaha
then after prom!
Avalon was okayy
but i expected more from a club :/
it was pretty fail since two of us can't get in cause nvr bring IC
but it was a pretty cool experience.
first time in a club hahaha
feel so kiddo
the next day
I realize how depressing it is to stay alone
while I sometime thing that crowds can be stupid, I realize how i can't survive alone
i'm growing madder if I need to stay in a house alone with nobody
I'm so not independent
wheh
Last sunday went out with sis and changwon
watched rise of guardian
as much as people say that it's nice, I can't really enjoy the movie since i find it very kiddish
hahaha now I feel old
10th December!!
Everything with Fries at Holland V with Bao, Bryan, Don, Sarah, Tiff, and Jo!
followed by island creamery and Wala wala! their live band not too bad luh, considering it's one of their less popular day
Grilled pork chop!!
ah my life so happening suddenly
Okay I should sleep soon
Almost 2 alr!
Toodles~
When I look into your eyes
it's like watching the night sky
or beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
and just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
to be right where you are
how old is your soul
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
Still looking up
and when you're needing your space
to do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
to see what you find
Cause even the stars, they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
the tools and gift we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend for us to work
we didn't break we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got and what I'm not and who I am
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up
I won't give up on us
God knows I'm tough enough
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
"Even after all that, I really hope that we can still be the good friend that we are :)"
You know any work of fiction has an awesome story when you actually have attachment to the characters Indeed, that game has a beautiful, yet saddening story :'(
Oh well, It's late and I should be sleeping soon
Toodles~
Nevermind I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best of you Don't forget me I beg I remember you said "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead "I wish I can have a taste of that feeling I had when you're around me once more"
12:46 am I'm supposed to be asleep Yet here I am, eyes fully opened Mind fully awake
It's Sunday Whoops, Monday alr I just dunno why but I feel like reflecting what has happened this year so far Kind of stupid since 2012 still has a little more than a month left I'm not gonna care about that and blog anyway LOLOL
2012 One of the most happening year of my life Actually, when I think about it, it is the most happening year so far
Start of the year, I was just this guy who still hasn't realised that he's a J2 still slacking all the way, without giving a damn about things in the future After that, CCA juniors came, and I just had that sudden realisation I was like "Hey, I'm a senior now, like wth, time flies" OEC was one of the most fun days in my entire JC life
Mid of the year, The horror started to kick in. BT2 was around the corner, and I actually started mugging. The A-level pressure was getting onto me I guess. The fear of failing my exams just scared the living shit out of me that the laziest bastard on earth actually started mugging This period was also, how should I say it, one of the happiest moment. if not the most, of my life It was the time when I actually felt loved for once I experienced that feeling when somebody that you really care about returned that same feeling to you It was the kind of feeling that makes you go "errmm, it's so great that any word I use won't do it justice" That feeling was beyond words
It's pretty unfortunate it was short lived though Everything went downhill Shit happened and everything just fell apart I hit rock bottom, from happiest guy on earth to a melancholic, pathetic, miserable emo bitch What's left of me was anguish, disappointment and greatest of all, sadness It's the feeling of losing the precious thing. Your love, your happiness, and most of all, your best friend I became stupid, trying to calm my unstable mind with my fist Walls were my best buddies for that short while Yes, I know how stupid that is.
I thank god for having close friends to help me deal with that problem of mine By the time of prelim, I think I have settled pretty much most of my pent up emotion So it didn't screw me so badly *phew* These friends of mine are treasure, gift that god has sent me, and I shouldn't and wouldn't take them for granted It's also because of them that I can actually concentrate for my As too :) Thanks guys. You know I love you peeps <3
Now, As is unofficially over. Left with two MCQ papers. I do believe I will not screw this up, unlike my GP which was, IMO, pretty horrible but then again, GP is like my weakest subject next to econs :/
2012, left with a month. after which uni life lies in store for me I just hope I can get into the course that I want (Medicine, Pharmacy, I'm begging you, and NTU, you can go away)
Gosh, it took me like 1 hour 15 mins to write this goddamn long post. It's 2:05 and I should REALLY sleep
Toodles~
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember The people we used to be It's even harder to picture That you're not here next to me You say it's too late to make it But is it too late to try? And in our time that you wasted All of our bridges burned down I've wasted my nights You turned out the lights Now I'm paralyzed Still stuck in that time when we called it love But even the sun sets in paradise I'm at a payphone trying to call home All of my change I spent on you Where have the times gone Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two? If happy ever after did exist I would still be holding you like this All those fairytales are full of shit One more fucking love song I'll be sick
"I'm amazed by the fact that I can still be saddened even after all this time"