I'm supposed to be asleep
Yet here I am, eyes fully opened
Mind fully awake
It's Sunday
Whoops, Monday alr
I just dunno why but I feel like reflecting what has happened this year so far
Kind of stupid since 2012 still has a little more than a month left
I'm not gonna care about that and blog anyway LOLOL
2012
One of the most happening year of my life
Actually, when I think about it, it is the most happening year so far
Start of the year, I was just this guy who still hasn't realised that he's a J2
still slacking all the way, without giving a damn about things in the future
After that, CCA juniors came, and I just had that sudden realisation
I was like "Hey, I'm a senior now, like wth, time flies"
OEC was one of the most fun days in my entire JC life
Mid of the year, The horror started to kick in.
BT2 was around the corner, and I actually started mugging.
The A-level pressure was getting onto me I guess.
The fear of failing my exams just scared the living shit out of me that the laziest bastard on earth actually started mugging
This period was also, how should I say it, one of the happiest moment. if not the most, of my life
It was the time when I actually felt loved for once
I experienced that feeling when somebody that you really care about returned that same feeling to you
It was the kind of feeling that makes you go "errmm, it's so great that any word I use won't do it justice"
That feeling was beyond words
It's pretty unfortunate it was short lived though
Everything went downhill
Shit happened and everything just fell apart
I hit rock bottom, from happiest guy on earth to a melancholic, pathetic, miserable emo bitch
What's left of me was anguish, disappointment and greatest of all, sadness
It's the feeling of losing the precious thing.
Your love, your happiness, and most of all, your best friend
I became stupid, trying to calm my unstable mind with my fist
Walls were my best buddies for that short while
Yes, I know how stupid that is.
I thank god for having close friends to help me deal with that problem of mine
By the time of prelim, I think I have settled pretty much most of my pent up emotion
So it didn't screw me so badly *phew*
These friends of mine are treasure, gift that god has sent me, and I shouldn't and wouldn't take them for granted
It's also because of them that I can actually concentrate for my As too :)
Thanks guys. You know I love you peeps <3
Now, As is unofficially over.
Left with two MCQ papers.
I do believe I will not screw this up, unlike my GP which was, IMO, pretty horrible
but then again, GP is like my weakest subject next to econs :/
2012, left with a month.
after which uni life lies in store for me
I just hope I can get into the course that I want (Medicine, Pharmacy, I'm begging you, and NTU, you can go away)
Gosh, it took me like 1 hour 15 mins to write this goddamn long post.
It's 2:05
and I should REALLY sleep
Toodles~
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me
You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise
I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of shit
One more fucking love song I'll be sick
"I'm amazed by the fact that I can still be saddened even after all this time"
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