I cried :(

You know any work of fiction has an awesome story when you actually have attachment to the characters
Indeed, that game has a beautiful, yet saddening story :'(

Oh well, It's late and I should be sleeping soon

Toodles~

Nevermind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best of you
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
but sometimes it hurts instead

"I wish I can have a taste of that feeling I had when you're around me once more"

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(ALMOST) END OF YEAR REFLECTION

12:46 am
I'm supposed to be asleep
Yet here I am, eyes fully opened
Mind fully awake

It's Sunday
Whoops, Monday alr
I just dunno why but I feel like reflecting what has happened this year so far
Kind of stupid since 2012 still has a little more than a month left
I'm not gonna care about that and blog anyway LOLOL

2012
One of the most happening year of my life
Actually, when I think about it, it is the most happening year so far

Start of the year, I was just this guy who still hasn't realised that he's a J2
still slacking all the way, without giving a damn about things in the future
After that, CCA juniors came, and I just had that sudden realisation
I was like "Hey, I'm a senior now, like wth, time flies"
OEC was one of the most fun days in my entire JC life

Mid of the year, The horror started to kick in.
BT2 was around the corner, and I actually started mugging.
The A-level pressure was getting onto me I guess.
The fear of failing my exams just scared the living shit out of me that the laziest bastard on earth actually started mugging
This period was also, how should I say it, one of the happiest moment. if not the most, of my life
It was the time when I actually felt loved for once
I experienced that feeling when somebody that you really care about returned that same feeling to you
It was the kind of feeling that makes you go "errmm, it's so great that any word I use won't do it justice"
That feeling was beyond words

It's pretty unfortunate it was short lived though
Everything went downhill
Shit happened and everything just fell apart
I hit rock bottom, from happiest guy on earth to a melancholic, pathetic, miserable emo bitch
What's left of me was anguish, disappointment and greatest of all, sadness
It's the feeling of losing the precious thing.
Your love, your happiness, and most of all, your best friend
I became stupid, trying to calm my unstable mind with my fist
Walls were my best buddies for that short while
Yes, I know how stupid that is.

I thank god for having close friends to help me deal with that problem of mine
By the time of prelim, I think I have settled pretty much most of my pent up emotion
So it didn't screw me so badly *phew*
These friends of mine are treasure, gift that god has sent me, and I shouldn't and wouldn't take them for granted
It's also because of them that I can actually concentrate for my As too :)
Thanks guys. You know I love you peeps <3

Now, As is unofficially over.
Left with two MCQ papers.
I do believe I will not screw this up, unlike my GP which was, IMO, pretty horrible
but then again, GP is like my weakest subject next to econs :/

2012, left with a month.
after which uni life lies in store for me
I just hope I can get into the course that I want (Medicine, Pharmacy, I'm begging you, and NTU, you can go away)

Gosh, it took me like 1 hour 15 mins to write this goddamn long post.
It's 2:05
and I should REALLY sleep

Toodles~


Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me
You say it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of shit
One more fucking love song I'll be sick

"I'm amazed by the fact that I can still be saddened even after all this time"

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CRAZY HANDS TRIED TO KILL ME D:

Waking up on the morning
Supposed to go utown early
But still lazing in bed :/
*oink*

I woke up from a nightmare.
It sucks :/
Flying hands appeared when I shower and tried to murder me
Now I think about it, it sounds more silly than scary.

Okay enough with the rambling.
I should wake up and shower now.

Toodles~

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I don't believe in
Cause I've got time while she got freedom
Cause when the heart break no they don't break even

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces

"I wish things can go back to how it used to be"

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Fun fact: Albert is a pig

Gosh I've done quite a bit of work today.
Three bio paper three. All scored B :/ must get damn high to make up for paper two lost mark!!

And then I slacked
LOLOL
I've been addicted to pewdiepie omg
I should block YouTube for a while :/

Yeah I passed my manperiod time without doing anything stupid
Just kidding, I did stupid stuff
I might need to seek some help :/

Well, emotion has been more or less stable lately so I guess I'm pretty fine.
I can't believe how fast time flies though.
It has been like what, 5 months since that.
And I actually am still counting :/
*deep sigh*
I'm an idiot for letting my emotion screwing me up more than it should have.

On an unrelated note, I feel so fat.
Never exercise, eat so much D:
I should go an exercise soon.
But my lazy fat arse just won't budge :/
Okay I'm gonna run one of the days. (the thing I always say but never keep)

Almost 11
I should sleep soon since got church tmrw.

Toodles~

Hatiku berharap mungkin engkau kan berubah
Bisa mencintai aku seperti hatiku padamu
Hujan badai kan ku tempuh, bintang di langit kan ku raih
Bila harus ku kan merayu untuk cintaku bagimu

Cintamu tlah menjadi candu
Cintamu tlah membuatku membisu
Cintamu oh seindah lagu
Membuatku tak bisa berpaling darimu

"Life ain't fairy tale. Wake the fuck up."

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A Lonely September, uh I mean November.

I'm sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something anything, just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
and I didn't  mean to get so close and share what we did
and I didn't mean to fall in love but I did
and you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did

I'm sitting here trying to convince myself that you're not that one for me
But the more I think the less I believe it and the more I want you here with me
You know that holidays are coming up. I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas times with you, just kill me if I'm on my own


Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
and I didn't  mean to get so close and share what we did
and I didn't mean to fall in love but I did
and you didn't mean to love me back
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
We just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sitting here trying to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand, we've got nothing left to prove


Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
and I didn't  mean to get so close and share what we did
and I didn't mean to fall in love but I did
and you didn't mean to love me back 

and I didn't mean to meet you then when we were just kids
and I didn't mean to give you chills the way that I kiss
and I didn't mean to fall in love but I did
and you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back cause you know you did
No you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

"It's great that I feel like crap before two exams"

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Halfway there bee yachts :D

GP and Maths downed!!
While maths is quite doable, I'm concerned with my GP :/

Okay, I shouldn't dwell on it just yet.
Thursday is Chem and Friday is killer econs bio combo D:
I should really concentrate. But I no more paper to do :/

6 papers left! I'm gonna pull through this shit!

Gonna study now!!

Toodles~

Everything about you pains my envying
Your soul can't hate anything
Everything about you is so easy to love
They're watching you from above

Give me all the peace and joy in your mind
I want the peace and joy in your mind

"I'm a hardcore muse lover :3"

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Panic Station

TMRW D:
*PANIC MODE*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OKAY CALM DOWN
YOU CAN FKING DO THIS

I can't believe time flies so goddamned fast :/
My life of a JC student is ending soon.
A lot of things have happened
Shit happens
Blahblahblah etc etc.
I don't feel like elaborating now lol

All the work that I've put in for the past two or so years
Everything comes down to this
The freaking A level.
Hopefully everyone can make it

Okay it's almost 1 am
I should sleep soon

Toodles~

Doubts will try to break you
Unleash your heart and soul
Troubles will surround you
Start taking some control

Stand up and deliver
Your wildest fantasy
Do what the fuck you want to
There's no one to appease

Oh 1,2,3,4 fire's in your eyes
And this chaos it defies imagination
Oh 5,6,7,8 minus 9 lives
You've arrived at panic station

"Give me strength to beat the crap out of this Goliath of mine"

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