I'm still alive but i'm barely breathing

So it happened
I'm sad
I wanted to tear my heart out
for being such a retard
But is there any need to?
It's damaged enough as it is anyway

So i'm sitting here all by myself
Just trying to think of sth to do
Anything that keeps me from thinking of you
But i just can't
All the time we spent together
All the memories
It just keep coming back to me
and it hurts

I'm supposed to be fine
I've been broken several times before anyway
There isn't supposed to be any difference
But no, it differ
A LOT
it hurts me much more than i've ever before
Heck, i'll admit that I cried like little biatch
I've just fallen that far

I need time
to let it heal
to mend it
to pick all the broken pieces and to piece it back together
Give me time
And i'll be fine
In fact, i'll be stronger than ever before

Talked it out with my best bud
and you've gotta admit she's amazing
to be able to pick me up when i'm at the lowest like that
gosh what would i do if I never have a friend like you

I just wondered why
of all the time
it's now
when it's supposed to be happy days
when i'm supposed to smile for others' happiness
it pains me to put on a facade, needing to smile to hide the tears away
Oh well, everything happens for a reason


And if you ever read this
DON'T YOU EVER FEEL GUILTY
because none of this is your fault to begin with
It's mine
Never yours
So, don't feel sad because of this
Cos that will hurt me even more

I'm pretty much done pouring my heart out
Thanks for reading this piece of crap anyway

Toodles~

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when i'm all choked up and you're okay
I'm falling to pieces


"You know, I always thought you're the one, and I see a future in us"