Sucks to be me

It sucks when you miss a person you're not supposed to.
Why is it so hard to let go?


Kimi ga inai mirai
Imi nado nai mirai
Nido to hanashitari wa shinai kara
Kimi to nozomu sekai
Mita koto nai sekai
Jikuu o koete haruka tabisuru bokura

"I miss those days when i can just look at you without feeling any pain"

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Yellow umbrella

Yesterday there was a himym s7 marathon
and i actually spent almost the whole day watching it.
(sarcasm) I totally have a life (/sarcasm)

and i haven't done GP yet :p


Mencoba bertahan sekuat hati
Layaknya karang yang
Dihempas sang ombak
Jalani hidup dalam buai belaka
Serahkan cinta tulus di dalam takdir


"I wish you could be more of the yellow umbrella girl instead of Robin Scherbatsky"

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Not only an asshole, I'm also a retard

The awkward moment when you realize that you just went full retard

My knuckles still hurt :/

I'm supposed to be doing Chem
but then I feel so very lazy
D:

MY FACE HAVE PIMPLE OUTBURST
AND MY EMOTION ISN'T EXACTLY STABLE FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF DAYS OR SO
ZOMG
I'M HAVING MY PERIOD

okay my nose is also acting up again :/
sianz

Toodles~

And I swear
If you come back in my life
I'll be there till the end of time
Oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right by my side
Cause baby you're the one I want


"As much as I'm trying to tell myself to let go, I just can't seem to find a way to do so"

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I'm a certified asshole

It's been a little more than a week
Yet things don't go as I want it to be
:(


I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

"I'm sorry, I just broke my promise. Again"

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As much as I'd like to be happy, I still feel like shit on the inside.

"It's only been a few days, but i can't bear it"

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EMMA STONE IS HOT

AMAZING SPIDERMAN
Movie was so-so
BUT BUT
EMMA STONE IS SUPER DUPER HOT
<3

Kay today's lesson was quite okay
econs was a boring lesson as usual :p
I need to start appreciate the subject
else i don't think i can improve ><
And seem like i'll fail this one quite badly
:/

Ah anyway, it's quite lateeee
a lil sleepy, but wasshing machine not done yet :/
I'll wait for awhile before sleeping then :D

Toodles~

You're beautiful
It's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
Cause I'll never be with you


"Help me fill the emptiness in my heart, anyone?"

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I've gotta keep my heads up

When life's being a bitch, might as well as just make fun of it to brighten up :D

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If I'm dreaming, wake me up
I'm in a fucking nightmare

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make it like it never happened and then we were nothing


"Why did things get so fucked up so easily?"

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I'M AN OPTIMIST!! :D

Things happen and I just can't help but start to be more philosophical LOL
Is our life fixed to a predetermined destiny or are we able to alter fate itself through our own course of actions?
I'm taught that everything is prepared by God, yet we are also given free will by God.
Wouldn't this contradict each other? In a way, It makes it like we're given an illusion of freedom. Like a monkey living in a closed area with wall paintings of jungle, we may believe that we are free, while reality shows otherwise.
But hey, i'm more of an optimist. I still think that we aren't fixed to a destiny but rather, can change our fate.
Using the illustration earlier, it can just be implied that the monkey is destined to forever live in that room, believing he's free. As for me, I'll be a monkey who would question myself. "Hey, I knocked into a wall and realise it's just a painting. I need to achieve my true freedom and get out of this hell hole. Is there an EXIT anywhere?"
So yeah, I do believe we're capable of determining our own fate.
About how things are meant to be or not meant to be? It's not that i deny that some things are uncontrollable (CA OF CONCESSION LOL), but i do think that things can and will change over time. Scientifically speaking, there are parallel universe branching out of our universe every moment. What's meant to be in one universe does not necessary means the same in another.
So, sure, it may not be matter of giving up or not. but I just want you to know that whatever happen, i'll stick in what I believe in.

'Nuff said

Toodles~

Can we fall, one more time?
Stop the tape and rewind
Oh and if you walk away I know I'll fade
Cause there's nobody else
It's gotta be you
Only you

"Just a piece of my thought"

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When you smile, I smile :)

So far
Chem: B
Maths: A
Bio: B prolly
Econs: absolutely no idea
GP: D

and I can't complain because some pretty girl will just give me the wth look and start hitting me
Shall be happy with these marks thennnn :D

I feel like learning martial arts
Just for the fun of it
LOL xD

Suetning, get well soon!!
Next time when i say go to sleep don't say no can??

My pastamania just came
NOMNOM

I think i'm falling sick
I can feel my throat getting dry and a lil pain
Or maybe i just didn't drink enough water :p

I just won a fifa match against com
LIKE FINALLY
GOSH THEY ARE LIKE SO BLOODY HARD
HARDER THAN PLAYING WITH ARKAR OR DAN LOLOL

I haven't showered yet
Me smelly
XD

Xu asking me go kayaking level 2
But bo time, bo money
Next year when have lotsa free time :D

okay I think i'm done pouring out my randomness

Toodles~

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart
Always

"I'm too stubborn to give up and I just wish that you did the same."

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I'm supposed to be asleep

It's a quarter after midnight
and still awake.
Sian

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
to think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

"You keep running through my mind. Am I doing the same in yours?"

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I'M HOME ALONE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOUCHES YCW AND XWJ
YOU GUYS MAKE MY LIFE AWESOME (somewhat xP)

My sis is in school
so i'm alone at home :/
And i'm a little hungry
NOMNOMing cake now :)

I'm so screwed
I have no mood to study now
As much as i hate exam, i really need one soon if i were to have motivation to study

AND I'M SUPER ULTRA BORED
SIAN
I DUNNO WHAT TO DO
ACTUALLY, i'm supposed to do GP
BUT then, as mentioned earlier, i don't feel like doing anything study related
Ms Sin is gonna be so sad :(

I'll find sth to do now

Toodles~


Trying to think of something anything just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind


"Know that you're beautiful. Don't let anyone says otherwise, not even yourself"

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HD VISION

I finally got my new specs

my degree increase by about 100 each :(

I'll need to cut my com time D:

Anyway I'm gonna play pool soon :D

Toodles~

I was thinking about her

Thinking about me

Thinking about us

What we're gonna be

Open my eyes

It was only just a dream

"Will we ever be together? I don't know. Only God knows"

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BUSY DAY

Went to watch prometheus with Sis :D
It was pretty nice :)

Next, met up with Luci, Liza, Arlyn, xuxu and boon :D
LUCI IS LIKE SO CUTE
BECAUSE SHE'S LIKE SO SMALL HAHAHAHA XD
she's like a little sister even though she's older than me xP
Went to eat mac ice cream with them hahaha

Then went to vivo to meet up with chinchin and her bf, plus luke and Korean.
Ate at crystal jade :D
so waste money, ytd sushi tei, today crystal jade T.T
But it was pretty awesome since i miss them so bloody much

Went back home damn late
Like 1 am
cos i was talking to xuxu near his pool LOLOL
my sis was like damn worried cos my batt died
Sorry >< won't happen again! i'll tell you earlier if i go back that late!

Now, I'm at home, gonna sleep soon prolly :)

I a bit sad cos we forgot to take a single photo :(
Toodles~


Never gonna give you up
Never gonna let you down
Never gonna run around and desert you
Never gonna make you cry
Never gonna say goodbye
Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you


"You know, every time i say I love you, I mean it, from the bottom of my heart"

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HURRAY

YAY DONE WITH BT2
LIKE FINALLY
xD
HAPPYMAX

Gonna watch prometheus with my sis tmrw :D
then dinner with douches and douchesses who I miss very very much :D
wew busy day tmrw :D

Just now went to Kar's house
Trash them in Fifa LOL
7-3 and 7-1 :D
I'm so totally gonna rub it in their faces xD

After that went dinner with bao, bryan, tiff, sarah, tanli and chunani couple
sushi tei :D
and daily scoop was awesome xD

Like shiok only :D

And last episode of VGHS :/
Gonna watch it before I sleep!!

Toodles~


Mestinya telah kusadari
Betapa perih cinta tanpa balasmu
Harusnya tak ku paksakan
Bila akhirnya kan melukaiku


"I love you and there is nothing that you can do about it"

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I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING

Just because there are plenty of fish in the sea doesn't mean that any of them will want to be around you LOL

Okay I'm supposed to be studying for bio and chem ><

Toodles~

I don't ever want to lose this feeling
I don't want to spend a moment apart
Cause you bring out the best in me
like no one else can do
That's why i'm by your side
That's why I love you

"I'd love to one day fly on the back of a dragon"

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